"I think we are and will always
be lonely people in a lonely
world under lonely stars.
We can never starve our loneliness.
We can only hope that by the
company of others,
it doesn’t devour us."
#love believe friendship
I know it doesn’t look like but i want you to know that i really miss u and that i wish that things were different, you know? In a perfect world you are the one for me. I am sorry if it looks like I don’t care about you, but I really do. It is just I dont know how to act or what to say, I dont want to mess things up…it is a relief know that you are my friend, and that in some way you are part of my life. There are many things that I would like to speak about with you but I cant, just cuz I dont want things to be awkward between us. The feeling that you are out there is one of the best things that ever happened to me since the rupture, so I dont want to loose that.If in a future things gets better, it will be great, but if not I will always have the feeling that you are my friend and that I can count of you.
I love you, do not ever forget that, you give me hope, now I really can believe in love.
"It would be too easy to say that I feel invisible. Instead, I feel painfully visible, and entirely ignored."
"My only relief is to sleep. When I’m sleeping, I’m not sad, I’m not angry, I’m not lonely, I’m nothing."
#twistowt #transtioning #stretching
37 weeks post relaxer
Transitioning or just a long stretch? Havent decided it yet…but I am doing pretty good.
I had my last relaxer/texlax Feb 8, and it did not go as I was expecting. I always texlax, i dont like it bone straight, because I love my hair with body….but even though I just wear the product 13-15 min as usual, it turn out superstraigh!!
As a result I end up with 2 different textures of hair. After my usual 24 weeks of stretching I decided that I was going to keep doing it until I could not manage my hair and I’m surprised because I am loving my new growth. The next week it will be 9 months/38 weeks…and I have decided to keep going until Feb 8,2014 and then I will decide whether or not I will texlax my hair again. Right now I think that I will be going natural….but hey, you never know!
Happy hair journey :):)
"Maybe the wolf is in love with the moon, and each month it cries for a love it will never touch."
Don’t expect to get anything back, don’t expect recognition for your efforts, don’t expect your genius to be discovered or your love to be understood. Act because you need to act.